Life is not a competition, but I’m winning




Documentary films have a preference for showing their protagonists suffering. For us though, it was crucial to not provide any cinematic space for violence – as by restricting a film to the description of terrible injustices, it gives cinematic space ONLY to the forces that have caused the painful circumstances. By showing and repeating things, you always hold on to them at the same time. Instead, in our film, utopian moments of collective togetherness slowly weave themselves into the life of our protagonist. Suffering and pain merge into a vision of queer community that ends up being more powerful than the violence that was committed.


The crew of this project was made up of women and queer people only – not only for reasons of representation, but also because the incorporation of all participants’ experiences and the atmosphere during the shooting were essential for our project.



Nearly no other part of society is still so rigidly separated by gender as the world of sports. This not only affects the athletes, but also significantly shapes the gender perception of millions of spectators.


In a mixture of fiction, documentary and archival footage, this film whirls up the stereotypical gender categories in competitive sports.


We accompany Amanda Reiter, a trans marathon runner from the Bavarian province, and Annet Negesa, an 800-meter runner from Uganda. Both are confronted with the restrictive gender concepts of sports and are trying to free themselves out of them. The documentary layer of the film is interwoven with fictional moments, in which a group of athletes forms a queer-feminist collective envisioning a world beyond stereotypical gender categories. A colourful utopia in cinemascope.

Crew & Cast


directed by Julia Fuhr Mann  cinematography Caroline Spreitzenbart  sound design Cornelia Böhm  gaffer Janne Ebel  1st AC Nadja Krüger  on-set sound Rhys Anderson  costume design Angela Queins  set design Sonja Schreiber, Mireia Vila Soriano  make-up artist Mai Strathmann  editing Merit Giesen, Melanie Jilg  vfx artists Isabelle Kramer, Fabian Peitzsch  graphic design Anna Lind Haugaard  dramaturgical advice Lena Hatebur, Susanne Bieger  3sat/ZDF Katya Mader  producer Melissa Byrne  production Sophie Ahrens, Fabian Altenried, Kristof Gerega 


with Annet Negesa, Amanda Reiter, Caitlin Fisher, Daniel Marin Medina, Chun Mei Tan, Eva Maria Jost, Jakob Levi Stahlberg, Oumou Aidara, Greta Graf


funded by FFF Bayern  winner of ARRI postproduction award  winner of British Pathé Archive Award  part of Locarno First Look  part of Into the Wild Mentoring


© Schuldenberg FilmsUniversity of Television and Film Munich / ZDF / 2023




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